Yet another year ended

Finished yet another lap of my journey. 2014 has come to an end and I am ready to open gates for 2015. Before I enter New Year, just a glimpse at 2014.

It was a mixed bag of happy and not so happy moments for me. But one thing I like about this year is, the order in which these moments came into my life.  I have nothing much to say about happy moments but for unhappy moments, yes I know the reason.

Until almost half the year, different people perceived my activities differently. These people are no strangers. They are the people with whom I speak regularly, exchange jokes and hang out occasionally. Somehow over the period of time, my daily routine act invited strange responses, weird reactions. I was not able to find clues for this strangeness but I kept on proving myself. There were moments when I was in so much stress that I forgot to be myself. This is exact reason for the unhappiness.

Instead of let go things easily, I tried to rectify them instantly and expected people to react in the way I want. There was a strange kind of rush within me. All this caused unhappiness. In simple words, I myself invited unhappy moments and no one is to be blamed.

Then I realized it is time for me to pause on certain things. I slowly moved away from the situation and gave space to myself. Now I am clear with the things I do, I don’t feel stress anymore nor I am confused with the things I need to do.

By the end of the year, I found myself in positive, fun loving and encouraging environment. 

Now I don’t expect this New Year to bring me happiness because I know the direction towards happiness. It is within me and I need to cherish it.

All ended well and I am closing this year with a good note.Happy New Year folks :)

 

Cheers,

Padma