Finished yet another lap of my journey. 2014 has come to an end and I am ready to open gates for 2015. Before I enter New Year, just a glimpse at 2014.

It was a mixed bag of happy and not so happy moments for me. But one thing I like about this year is, the order in which these moments came into my life.  I have nothing much to say about happy moments but for unhappy moments, yes I know the reason.

Until almost half the year, different people perceived my activities differently. These people are no strangers. They are the people with whom I speak regularly, exchange jokes and hang out occasionally. Somehow over the period of time, my daily routine act invited strange responses, weird reactions. I was not able to find clues for this strangeness but I kept on proving myself. There were moments when I was in so much stress that I forgot to be myself. This is exact reason for the unhappiness.

Instead of let go things easily, I tried to rectify them instantly and expected people to react in the way I want. There was a strange kind of rush within me. All this caused unhappiness. In simple words, I myself invited unhappy moments and no one is to be blamed.

Then I realized it is time for me to pause on certain things. I slowly moved away from the situation and gave space to myself. Now I am clear with the things I do, I don’t feel stress anymore nor I am confused with the things I need to do.

By the end of the year, I found myself in positive, fun loving and encouraging environment. 

Now I don’t expect this New Year to bring me happiness because I know the direction towards happiness. It is within me and I need to cherish it.

All ended well and I am closing this year with a good note.Happy New Year folks :)

 

Cheers,

Padma

When I see the clouds in the sky

I remember the days that passed by

Just out of college into this big world of opportunities

Never knew LIFE has so many treats

I realized life is a way we live it and is up to us

To be with a negative or with a plus

Life is something we have been blessed

Choice is yours, choose your quest

Follow your passions and you will be fine

With the right attitude you will SHINE

When I see the clouds in the sky

I remember the days that passed by

Still continuing my journey

Not forgetting my initial day agony

//Padma

Year: 2001

Time: 9:00 am

Place: A small company in Hyderabad

I walked into the office and as usual I am the first person to enter. I went and settled at my desk. I pulled out my planner and checked the schedule for the day. It was quiet hectic and I had to fix lot of appointments and redirect a lot of calls for my boss. Yes that was my job as front office assistant. It was the job that helped me pay my rent, groceries and transport. I did it with utmost sincerity and perfection. I made good friends at work and it was all going fine.

One day I was at my routine job and my boss had a visitor. This gentleman looked old and seems to be in some urgency. Every 5 mins he would ask if he can go inside. But I asked him to wait as my boss was with another visitor. This guy became impatient, rudely banged at my desk and said. “You are hopeless and can get you out of job immediately. You don’t know who am I?”

I was surprised. I was just doing my job and did not find any reason why he has to get mad at me. I still insisted him to wait. Anyway later he met my boss and then walked away giving me a nasty look. Frankly, as long as he was inside I had a strange insecure feeling. I was just out of college and clearly not familiar with this kind of attitude.

Today I came a long way in my career and still I see this attitude in a lot of them.  What drives this feeling, “You don’t know who am I”, is it being rich by a few fat bucks or being in powerful position? why can't they understand dignity of labor and respect people for the work they do? Initially I used to hate such people. But now I don’t, because from my experience I learnt that nobody has control on anybody’s life unless we allow them to do so. Yes, we might face a few difficulties but if we strongly stand then nothing can ruin us. 

Today if someone says, “You don’t know who am I and what can I do?” I simply smile and reply, “Sorry, I have no interest in knowing about you”

Simple rule: Ignoring such attitude and not carrying trash in my brain made my life simple and happy.  

//Padma